I think that everything I try to do I always seem to do it wrong. I try to be the best, but I always seem to loose more then I asked for. I kept going round and round never finding away out of this. Until one day I got lost inside my very own mind. It was like nothing I'd ever seen things went upside down & backwards. I tryed my best to understand bit I just couldn't without going a tad bit insane. Then all of a sudden it stopped. Everything had stopped moving and started to fade away. So i just sat there without a thought going threw my mind. Just blackness every where as if i had completly gone brain dead. I felt no feelings, no emotions not even a thought or a single word came to poor deranged mind. The i realized why.....I was dead!

My body had shut down. I had completly was gone forever. I slowly watched as my friends and family came to see how I was doing. Then they began to cry. I sat their in the chair next to my body watching as everyone came into the hospitle room. I tryed my best to say I was sorry to all those who I have hurd. But sadly no one could hear me or even see me. Then as I was ready to move on my younger sister asked me a question, "Misha you don't have to go because you were a bad person in your past. Just come back and make things better again." She then begain to cry and then screamed. "Misha? Your not dead your alive?" I gave her this weird look wondering to myself how can she see me...